{"id":975,"date":"2025-05-08T17:02:16","date_gmt":"2025-05-08T15:02:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/?p=975"},"modified":"2025-06-30T23:19:42","modified_gmt":"2025-06-30T21:19:42","slug":"nu-sunt-pasionata-de-nimic-unknown","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/index.php\/2025\/05\/08\/nu-sunt-pasionata-de-nimic-unknown\/","title":{"rendered":"Nu sunt pasionat\u0103 de nimic"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">La gr\u0103dini\u021b\u0103 m-a \u00eenscris mama la dansuri populare. Ne preg\u0103team pentru serbare cu o doamn\u0103 dr\u0103gu\u021b\u0103 de la \u0218coala Popular\u0103 de Arte \u0219i la sf\u00e2r\u0219itul celor c\u00e2teva ore de <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">aproape <\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">vals m-am rugat de mama s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eenscrie la cercul unde preda doamna. Nu \u0219tiu de ce ne \u00eenv\u0103\u021ba vals, ea fiind profesoar\u0103 de dansuri populare, \u00eens\u0103 oricum orice fel de dansuri erau, eram sortit\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 las dup\u0103 c\u00e2teva luni. \u00cen clasa doua a urmat era mea de voleibalist\u0103, care a \u021binut aproximativ dou\u0103 luni. Pu\u021bin dup\u0103 m-am decis c\u0103 vreau s\u0103 m\u0103 apuc de karate, \u0219i chiar mi-a pl\u0103cut, p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd a trebuit s\u0103 dau un examen ca s\u0103 trec de la centura alb\u0103 la cea galben\u0103 \u0219i m-am speriat. Nu m-am l\u0103sat \u00eens\u0103 de a face sport \u0219i m-am apucat de handbal. La handbal am activat un an \u00eentreg, mai mult sau mai pu\u021bin for\u021bat\u0103. Nu mi-a pl\u0103cut deloc, fetele erau mai mari dec\u00e2t mine, r\u0103ut\u0103cioase \u0219i, \u00een ochii mei de copil bl\u00e2nd de clasa patra care c\u00e2nta devotat\u0103 \u00een corul Bisericii de trei ani \u00een continuu, prea agresive. \u00cen vara de dinainte de clasa a cincea mi-am \u00eencheiat etapa sportiv\u0103 a vie\u021bii. Tot atunci mi-am \u00eencheiat \u0219i etapa religioas\u0103 a vie\u021bii, c\u00e2nd mama \u0219i-a \u00eencheiat rela\u021bia tumultoas\u0103 cu iubitul ei toxic din corul Bisericii. \u00cen timpul acestor crize de personalitate am participat \u0219i la c\u00e2teva ore de desen, \u00eenot \u0219i canto. Dar \u00een spatele fiec\u0103rei activit\u0103\u021bi a existat o influen\u021b\u0103 extern\u0103. Fie mama, fie sor\u0103-mea, fie entuziasmul pentru c\u0103r\u021bile de vizit\u0103 ale doamnei care m-a \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat vals la gr\u0103dini\u021b\u0103, mereu cineva m-a convins. Nu am f\u0103cut nimic din pur\u0103 ini\u021biativ\u0103 niciodat\u0103.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Dintotdeauna nu mi-a pl\u0103cut s\u0103 fac nimic.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Nu-mi place s\u0103 fac nimic, dar totu\u0219i m\u0103 implic \u00een tot ce-mi apare \u00een cale. Nu-mi place s\u0103 fac nimic, dar cred totu\u0219i c\u0103 nu am \u00eencercat destule. Nu-mi place s\u0103 fac nimic, dar vreau s\u0103 fac c\u00e2t mai multe ca s\u0103 am experien\u021b\u0103 \u00een tot. Nu am nicio pasiune, dar am o mie de lucruri care \u00eemi plac. Mereu am avut \u0219i mi-am \u00eemp\u0103rt\u0103\u0219it f\u0103r\u0103 ru\u0219ine dorin\u021ba de a ajunge o casnic\u0103 \u00eemp\u0103cat\u0103 \u0219i lini\u0219tit\u0103, dar nu pentru c\u0103 sunt eu foarte familist\u0103, ci ca s\u0103 pot s\u0103 \u00eencerc tot ce nu am apucat s\u0103 \u00eencerc p\u00e2n\u0103 acum, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 fiu limitat\u0103 de un program monoton. Vreau s\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b s\u0103 c\u00e2nt la chitar\u0103 \u0219i la pian \u0219i poate la trombon. Vreau s\u0103 joc \u00een piese f\u0103cute de Ada Milea. Vreau s\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b s\u0103 fac sculpturi din lut \u0219i din silicon \u0219i vreau s\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b s\u0103 fac parfumuri \u0219i creme hidratante. Vreau s\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b s\u0103 fac mobil\u0103 \u0219i c\u0103su\u021be pentru p\u0103pu\u0219i \u0219i s\u0103 tai lemne \u0219i mi-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b s\u0103 fac tort de zah\u0103r ars \u0219i pl\u0103cinte. Vreau s\u0103 fiu o mam\u0103 care g\u0103te\u0219te \u00eentr-una, dar vreau s\u0103 fiu \u0219i o mama care \u0219tie s\u0103 repare aragazul \u0219i chiuveta, vreau s\u0103 \u0219tiu dansa tango \u0219i s\u0103 \u0219tiu regulile la tenis de c\u00e2mp \u0219i vreau s\u0103 scriu o carte absurd\u0103 care s\u0103 fie bun\u0103 \u0219i vreau s\u0103 fac \u0219i sal\u0103 \u00eentre timp sau poate yoga. Vreau s\u0103-mi fac o pagin\u0103 de Instagram cu poze la lucruri care construiesc din gre\u0219eal\u0103 fe\u021be z\u00e2mbitoare \u0219i vreau s\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b s\u0103 cos ca lumea la ma\u0219ina de cusut ca s\u0103-mi fac haine pe care numai eu s\u0103 le am. Vreau s\u0103 m\u0103 duc \u00een excursii la munte \u0219i s\u0103 sparg roci ca s\u0103 g\u0103sesc cristale \u0219i vreau s\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b despre plantele medicinale. Vreau s\u0103 \u0219tiu tot despre istoria \u0219i geografia socio-politic\u0103 a lumii \u0219i vreau s\u0103 am numai note de zece la tot \u0219i vreau s\u0103 \u0219tiu to\u021bi termenii economici \u0219i s\u0103 \u0219tiu codul muncii pe dinafar\u0103. Problema e c\u0103 vreau toate astea deodat\u0103, \u00een timp ce stau \u00een pat d\u00e2nd nervos din picioare pentru c\u0103 am multe de f\u0103cut, dar dintr-un motiv anume nu m\u0103 pot ridica. Problema e c\u0103 vreau toate astea pentru un minut \u0219i dup\u0103 nu le mai vreau \u0219i dup\u0103 le vreau din nou, dar degeaba c\u0103 nu m\u0103 apuc de nimic niciodat\u0103. C\u00e2nd ajung s\u0103 \u00eencep ceva, prima inconvenien\u021b\u0103 m\u0103 doboar\u0103. Cum adic\u0103 nu sunt foarte bun\u0103 la ceva ce am \u00eenceput acum 5 minute? \u00censeamn\u0103 c\u0103 nu sunt f\u0103cut\u0103 pentru asta \u0219i nu are rost s\u0103 fac ceva la care nu voi fi niciodat\u0103 cea mai bun\u0103 din prima.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">U\u0219urin\u021ba cu care m\u0103 plictisesc de orice \u0219i dorin\u021bele mele fugitive \u00eemi ascund viitorul dup\u0103 un mare semn de \u00eentrebare.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">M\u0103 simt complet pierdut\u0103 c\u00e2nd vine vorba de viitorul meu profesional. M\u0103 decid pe o carier\u0103 \u0219i peste dou\u0103 s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni vreau alta. Nu vreau nimic de fapt \u0219i doar \u00eencerc s\u0103 m\u0103 obi\u0219nuiesc cu ceva din nevoie. Nu \u00een\u021beleg de ce este normal ca o astfel de decizie s\u0103 fie luat\u0103 de un copil \u00een clasa a un\u0219pea. Nu \u0219tiu nimic \u0219i toat\u0103 lumea \u0219tie c\u0103 un copil de a un\u0219pea nu \u0219tie nimic. Am o mie de dorin\u021be care dispar \u0219i reapar, dar care nu sunt destul de intense ca s\u0103 m\u0103 determine s\u0103 lucrez pentru ele.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Caut r\u0103spunsuri \u00een c\u0103r\u021bi de tarot \u0219i \u00een za\u021buri de cafea de\u0219i \u0219tiu c\u0103 e o copil\u0103rie.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">M\u0103 rog s\u0103-mi pice r\u0103spunsul corect din cer, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 trebuiasc\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc eu prea mult pentru c\u0103 de fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la facultate \u0219i viitor m\u0103 doare capul \u00een exact acela\u0219i loc mereu: \u00een spatele urechii drepte. Dac\u0103 nu m\u0103 distrag, durerea se distribuie p\u00e2n\u0103 la ochiul drept \u0219i imediat dup\u0103, ochiul st\u00e2ng \u00eencepe s\u0103 mi se zbat\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-mi dau seama. Mi-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 vin\u0103 cineva la mine \u0219i s\u0103 m\u0103 oblige s\u0103 m\u0103 duc la POLI. S\u0103-mi dea un ultimatum neru\u0219inat. S\u0103 nu am nicicum o alt\u0103 variant\u0103, s\u0103 fiu pur \u0219i simplu obligat\u0103. M-a\u0219 mul\u021bumi. Dar c\u00e2t timp exist\u0103 \u0219i o alt\u0103 op\u021biune, nu voi putea fi \u00eemp\u0103cat\u0103 pe deplin cu nicio decizie. E \u00eenc\u0103p\u0103\u021b\u00e2nare, e fric\u0103 de incertitudine, e ego, nu \u0219tiu. Mi-a\u0219 dori s\u0103-mi dicteze cineva via\u021ba \u0219i s\u0103 accept f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Asta se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 c\u00e2nd nu e\u0219ti bun la matematic\u0103 \u00een primar\u0103.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">C\u00e2nd e\u0219ti bun la mate \u00een primar\u0103 te duci \u00een gimnaziu cu mai mult\u0103 \u00eencredere la matematic\u0103 \u0219i de acolo te duci la mate-info cu \u00eencredere c\u0103 \u0219tii matematic\u0103 \u0219i de acolo ai mai mult\u0103 \u00eencredere \u0219i la info \u0219i dup\u0103 te po\u021bi duce la UBB info sau la POLI calculatoare lini\u0219tit \u0219i gata, nu mai ai nicio grij\u0103 \u00een via\u021b\u0103. Felicit\u0103ri! E\u0219ti inginer sau programator, ai salariu foarte bun \u0219i po\u021bi s\u0103-\u021bi tr\u0103ie\u0219ti via\u021ba de clujean fericit \u0219i \u00eemp\u0103cat.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Mi-a\u0219 fi dorit s\u0103 fi fost bun\u0103 la mate \u00een primar\u0103.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>La gr\u0103dini\u021b\u0103 m-a \u00eenscris mama la dansuri populare. Ne preg\u0103team pentru serbare cu o doamn\u0103 dr\u0103gu\u021b\u0103 de la \u0218coala Popular\u0103 de Arte \u0219i la sf\u00e2r\u0219itul celor c\u00e2teva ore de aproape vals m-am rugat de mama s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eenscrie la cercul unde preda doamna. Nu \u0219tiu de ce ne \u00eenv\u0103\u021ba vals, ea fiind profesoar\u0103 de dansuri [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":36,"featured_media":976,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-975","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-social"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/975","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/36"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=975"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/975\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":983,"href":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/975\/revisions\/983"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/976"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=975"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=975"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rotarytransilvania.ro\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=975"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}